I tend to not worry and waste time on hypotheticals.
Jane O’Meara Sanders

I looked at the options of challenges and said nope. Ain’t going there today so I am just going to stumble through another insecure Friday.

This whole “Not Smoking’ is nothing more but a pain in the ass. Every day I get an intense craving for that butt, but try and ignore it. Sometimes it works and other times I hit the pipe to get over the jones. It hasn’t gotten easier, in fact it seems like I’m wasting my time.

Seems like that feeling of ‘wasting time’ is coming around a lot lately. This whole dream of singing was/is a waste of time and having me re-thinking this whole album thing. I am having a raging debate with myself on this and overloading myself with self doubt.

I might lose faith in this but what the hell, it isn’t the first time dreams and goals took a left turn on me and I’m sure it won’t be the last. I feel that I’ve wasted time and money on the DAW experience. I do believe it is cool but I am not mastering it the way I know I need too. Am I willing to give this another year to grow and mature? The money involved would be tight and going down this rabbit hole alone is not practical as I’ve found out already. With no other opinon but mine then yeah I need to walk away.

I think this is all pointing in one direction and telling me what I already know, it’s time to move on from this stage of life and quit worrying about all this shit, regain some human connection if you will and get back into life. Most of my apps will run out this year and I don’t think I should keep any of them, instead just kick the money back into a road trip account and then come spring…

WordPress accounts don’t renew until July and September so you’re probably stuck with me until then at least.😁

With all this crying I will leave you with the next song for WBRK 103.3 DM

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