Turmoil Within

The more I write, the more I want to walk away.

Headache or Heartbreak

Waking up this morning the same thoughts I went to sleep with are still haunting me. I struggle with the concept that everything I have accomplished on this site is just a waste of our time.

As Dawn arrived on this site almost two years ago I was inspired by words of hers to share my poetry with the world. I did this with reservations and found I was soon excited with the learning of formatting, editing, and publishing two books of poetry. Although I didn’t deep dive into marketing, I did accomplish the goal of having my words available for purchase if anyone was interested.

As this site grew my mind evolved with trying to use my thoughts on the NTT site using images Kevin created and writing poems to match them. I soon was off on combining other prompts from great sites like Di’s TTC and Esther’s different weekly prompts. John Holton also gives me inspiration with his choices each week, to name a few.

Then along came AJ Wilson. She showed us that her poetry was fun to listen to when she added AI generated music to go along with her fantastic writing. I looked into the app she was using and got hooked like a junkie trying his first heroin shot. I needed more.

Enter AI

With this came a whole different direction for me to play in. I was/am learning everyday how to make songs from my poems using AI to make the music I prompt and placing the song in Canva where I use my altered mind to make images and videos.

I have tried to make my videos fun and engaging to watch and listen to but alas I am finding out that everything I am doing is considered SLOP. The thing is, from what I have read and understand, slop is more of mass producing short clips and using AI to make the whole thing from words to video completion quick and flooding the market for profit.

If this is the case, does what I am doing fall into the slop category? I have not tried to monetize any of my work outside of the two books. I don’t flood my YouTube channel with songs everyday. I admit that my videos are not professionally done and openly tell everyone what and how I am doing. I improve with each one and try to make it something I would enjoy watching.

The Bottom Line

As my three year anniversary approaches next month on the Dawghouse Blog I look back and see the progress I have made with this site. I am pleased that it has evolved into what it is today. My poetry is received with positive vibes from everyone who has committed on it, my real life stories were not something I thought I would share but people seem to enjoy the chaotic life I’ve led and now I am moving into the world of slop. Here’s the thing,

In all of my life I haven’t given a shit about what other people think of the adventures I undertook and in so doing I have led a terrific, [although not always society accepted] life filled with amazing memories. Moving forward I don’t have plans to change this attitude either. I will continue to write my poetry, publish books if desired and keep making my videos, keeping this older brain engaged. Hell, I’ve always liked sloppy joes so why not?

If you’ve made it this far please understand this is not a rant but more of a soul searching thing for me to decide on which path to travel. Have a great weekend my friends.